Genesis. The dawn. Find whatever word you may, explaining the meaning of this particular phenomenon can be quite tricky.
In our day to day trifles, we ever-so-vaguely define the beginnings of things. The day started with a sunrise. The laptop I’m furiously writing (and just as furiously erasing) from started with an electronic ping. This article started with a word.
But defining the beginning can get harder as we move on to issues that are less trivial. Me and my lifelong muse…we began a day ago…or maybe it was half a decade ago! I can’t tell you for sure because I can’t trust my own perspective of what time has passed. Wasn’t it just yesterday that you met the girl you have been edging to hit a conversation with? And yet already it has been a year. Wasn’t it just an hour back that you huddled into the sheets with that special someone? It has been six hours already!!!
In this context, beginning is no more the start of something. It becomes how you feel about the start and how you look back at it. I have seen couples quarrel all their life and yet when asked “How long have you been with each other?”, they fail to answer beyond that weary smile. Beginning for them was a time they probably were much happier than now. But even in their seeming disparity with each other, they can only sigh when they say, time flies indeed.
We spend our lives seeking love from another. From the newborn babe that curls up in her exhausted mother’s arms to the weary soul who sobs thinking of the people he left behind. But it becomes really hard for us to describe the beginning of our love for someone.
When mere mortals fail to ascribe a beginning to their merely mortal feelings, one can only imagine how hard that same mortal would find to define the beginning of his world. Yet we try. We toil day and night. In tents barely holding up against a desert gale and in labs monotonously glowing and grunting with it’s machinery. We use all that is at our disposal so that one day we may be able to say, with more certainty than the day before, that our world started ‘then’.
At this level, it is not how we feel about it that obscures the answer from our sights. It’s how little we know about what we cannot know. Every day people shed off their personal feelings and their subjective opinions so that they can be precise and infallible in their findings. But lack of feelings fails to help us tell…how did our world begin? For the blissful, it began when they want it to have had begun. For the burdened, it began at a point when life itself didn’t matter. For me, I would think, it began when I opened my eyes.
However, the reason I’m writing (while you somehow manage to read on till this point) about how hard describing beginnings can get is the thought of describing the beginning of everything. Not each and every thing. But Everything. If it seems hard to grasp the beginning of our world, imagine wrapping your head around THAT! The start of Everything. The point at which before that point there was Nothing. And if there was nothing before, then how did Everything start? When did Everything start? Is Everything only what we can see and feel and explain? Or is Nothing itself Something and hence a part of Everything?
At this point, you must have felt, the answer to ‘how it began?’ is nothing but a quarry of questions, from which we may mine and cut and stare with awe at the jewels it begets…but this quarry still remains. And the reason I feel like I should stop at this point is because I can’t bloody remember when I began to write this.
Beginnings can be hard, explaining them even harder. But I can feel somewhere in that unexplained core of my gut that this is a good beginning. This is something that I will look back merrily and say, time, indeed, flies!
See you later fool!
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